Saturday, November 23, 2019, 7.59 a.m., Louisville, Kentucky
Karr says that she settled with never reporting years ago. The chance of justice is not worth the consequences of reliving the trauma, she says.
Saturday morning, she comes walking down the stairs from her first-floor apartment, wearing her Army green hat. In a few minutes she is supposed to meet a group of veterans for an off-road Jeep tour, but she is late. As Karr unlocks her car, tears fall down her face.
"I easily get flustered," she says. Stress gives her anxiety.
It is raining. Karr is outside the garage where the rest of the veterans group is having breakfast. The anxiety makes it hard for her to take part.
After a while, she goes back in. The president of the group greets everyone. This organization is one of the most important communities Karr has in her life right now. After the divorce, a lot of the contact with her ex-wife's family was naturally cut, and her own family lives out of state.
The other veterans understand her mood, she explains. That makes it easier to take part in activities like this.
"Veterans are veterans. When I walked in here one of the other guys walked up to me and asked if I was okay, and I said 'No. My heart is racing. I am late, because my alarm didn't go off.' But I didn't need to explain all this to him, because he knows my situation," Karr says.
Before the divorce, she showed up to events like this more often, but lately she has been less social.
When the Jeep later that day got stuck in a pool of mud, the adrenalin made Karr forget her anxiety. She laughed and thanked the other veterans for dragging her out.
That night she went to bed happy.